drama queen: question mark

Surprise surprise!!! He sent me text messages. I said I will hope again if he texts me and he did!

Fine! They were just friendly messages. I asked him a trivial question about his love life and he replied. He could have lied. He could have just let me think whatever I want to think. I know that friendship is the only thing he can offer to me.  I'm pretty sure that is all he can offer. Now or in the future. I also know that he knows that I am still hoping for both of us to get back together. I know that he will do anything to make me think that it will be impossible for that wish to come true. One clue is the fact that he made another account to pose as his girlfriend. I really don't know why he did that. I assumed he wants me to think he's off limits. I saw right through it, of course. When I saw the comments in his wall, I just smirked and rolled my eyes. Although my mind is telling me that that girl is just a figment of his imagination, I still got hurt. I realized that he had to resort to that pathetic tactic just to lure me away from him. So what if it did not work out the way he wanted it to(I am still here)? So what? It still delivered the dagger-like message straight to my heart. The message was clear. Too clear that I need not repeat it here. Which again led me to think this; He could have lied. Or he could have just let me be. Just kept his silence. Wasn't that his purpose for creating that fake account in FB?


That is why when he replied that he has no girlfriend now and is not looking for one,  I got surprised. I also do not know what to think now that he had deleted that same account.( Could it be that he has some girl he wants to impress? I'm scared. )Still it did not change anything. The fact that he told me a personal information means that he cared a little to what I think about him. And just because of that teeny weeny thing, I am raising my hopes up again!!! 

I don't know. It is just that, I asked for this sign. I was sure that he will not text me again, yet he did. 

I don't want to think anymore. I will just let nature take its course. Let myself develop into a swan, a butterfly, something beautiful. If he is the one for me, he will be mine. If he is not, someone else will thank him for letting me go.


But why did he reply? Why?