Reasons

There is always a reason for everything. I know that and I've used that statement for the nth time to explain why things happen to me. Up to now, I still believe in it. It is so funny that my Boyfriend and I have to break up first before I get to befriend two girls in this Social Networking site. I am still unsure if we will remain friends for a long time but I am enjoying their "company". We even text each other! I am not like that! I swear! It is just so weird. 


I am sorry, for those who do not know me, I only text guys. Guys I have a crush on or think that they have a crush on me. The thing is, I use my cellphone only to communicate important stuff to everyone and communicate not so important ones to..guys. So I find it weird to be excited to open my account in FB and check if these girls are online..well I guess, it is only because they have a connection to my ex. But what I have realized here is that, girls are fun to text and  chat with. I never had this kind of relationship with girls before. I have a lot of girlfriends, but I guess, I never showed real interest on their day to day life until recently. Or maybe I am just depressed and these girls are my outlet. I get to tell them things that my other close friends have already heard of a million times before. Actually, I only get to tell one girl. The other is so close to my ex that I do not want her to think I still carry a torch for him. They are like my link to the one who can never be mine. I am so weird. I don't know what is happening to me. Am I just using them? Are they just using me? Or are we going to end up really friends?


 So I wonder, why do I need to experience heart aches, why do I need to cry first before I get to meet them and befriend them? Why didn't we just meet in a restaurant or in a street somewhere and then hit it off? Why this? Why did we have to break up? Can't we be friends while I still have him?