drama queen: plenty of time for a happy ending

I like this song by KC Concepcion. Its title is "Why can't it be?" I like it not only because I am into sad songs lately but also because, like the person in the song, I am an escapist.

Just this morning, on my way home, I had about 2-3 daydreams. I spend more than an hour inside the bathroom not because I like to clean myself thoroughly but because I reenact, mimic, pantomimed each daydream that pops up in my head.  All have me as the main character. All have me as the winner.All have happy endings.

(Here comes the antagonist.)

I had my heart broken a million times. 

When I was in grade school (elementary), I had a crush with this boy. The problem is that he was teamed up with another female classmate. In grade school, love-teams are sacred. You can't mess up a love-team. You will be put at stake if you do. You will not have friends anymore. That was my first heartache.

Series of unfortunate events happened since then. Not only in girl-boy relationship did I suffer intense anguish or mental suffering. I had it mostly with my family. My imperfect family. Many times, I thought of throwing it all away. Too many times, I almost became a stone.

Fortunately, SOMEBODY saved me. He kept on saving me each time I fall. I owe everything to HIM. He got me. 

Recently, I had another painful encounter with life . It went on for months. I thought I might die. Seriously. It was that painful. 

But He told me to daydream again. 

I said, how can I? Does my heart still have room for that? I am turning 25! I was trying to have one before I reach the end of the calendar. Now it is gone! I'm running out of time!!! It took me 2 years to have that 2 months! I have no more time..I have no more room left..it's filled with pain. No more room!!

He didn't say anything. I kept on begging Him to just take it all away. To just make it all stop. He never answered.

Then  I came up with this blog. 

I met up with people.

I got to read inspiring messages. 

These messages slowly crept into my heart. It pushed pain away. The pain is gone.

...

Nah, it is still there!! 

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But it is growing faint. :)

...

A fairytale magic. 

Suddenly the pimples are slowly disappearing. Dark Circles slowly vanishing. Smile rapidly showing and radiating. 

Rejoice! Reina is daydreaming again! 

I am turning 25! I have 5 more years before I finally say goodbye to Mr. Calendar. I have more and more years to enjoy and star in my own movie. My own life. I am excited! My heart is beating for my happy ending... 

 Why? Because...

He said it would be awesome. It would be perfect. It would be worth the wait and the pain. He said not to worry. He said to be strong and enjoy what I have now. More and much better is yet to come. He said I will become a princess. 

I will become someone's queen. 

I said, I believe You.