drama queen: just a short update

Here is a list of things that happened to me in the past weeks. I got inspired by the "Emily Strange" novels I read so I will do this enumeration-like. I hope this will not cause any legal issues against me. Hahahaha

Note: These are random things that happened to me or I remembered doing in my absence in this blog. They are not in chronological order. 

1. I bought Emily the strange: Lost days and Emily the Strange: Stranger and Stranger

2. Looked for the next novel (dark times) in book stores in vain. Actually, I searched for it in just one bookstore.Still the result is in vain.

3. Former BF sent me a text message. This time, I did not text him first. He asked if I had a date. Huh?????? What gives?

4. There is this guy at work who, one day, just took over former BF's place. I am not saying that I am in love with him. What I am saying is that, I have been thinking of him instead of FBF.

5. Guy at work sent me a text this morning after yelling at him via FB and threatening him that I will not speak or talk or plainly recognize his existence if he will not text me. Sometimes, you just need to be in control,you know.

6. Rain and Transportation Strike today. 

7. Got news from Telephone provider that I still have 2 months left before I can disconnect account free of early termination fee.

8. Got enrolled in the so called CAE program ( don't know what CAE means) for failing scores for three months so that I can boost my metrics up to avoid getting terminated.

9. Got the number four spot for having a high score in CDV metric for the whole account since last week. Still  subject to change. I hope the change will be me being in the number 1 spot.  

10. Lost my pink umbrella.

11. Got a message that someone found it. Thank you Lord.

12. Read the latest episode of Naruto Shipuden. Also got disappointed that only one chapter or episode got added in Mangastream after 2 weeks of not being able to check the site.

13. Heard things about the  Judgment day on May 21. Felt my hand grow cold. Then calmed down. Then will pray. 

drama queen: short fb confession

Note: As promised, I will post this in here once I have a PC to check on my blog. I am now in an internet cafe in one of the malls here in Bacolod, killing my time while it is raining outside and while jeepneys are having, in my opinion, an unsuccessful transportation strike. 

Anyway, it has been so long since I last visited my blog and I will now paste the note I have made this morning in FB using my cellphone. So here goes:

The reason why I tell or show someone right away that I like him is because I do like him. I mean, I'm not asking him to marry me on the spot or whatever. I'm not even asking him to court me and be his gf. I just plainly like the guy and I want him to be aware of that. Why? Because knowing someone likes you feels good right? If we can tell bad news, why not tell good ones? Another is that, there is a very slim chance he will or already likes me. If that is the case, he might respond to me and make me feel good (which is my aim here). I am not looking for a bf. I just want to feel good.

So, if you happen to be the/a guy I like and you happen to know that, please, please, don't take it too seriously. I just like you and I really do but it does not mean anything. I mean, I will not like you in the first place if I think you will like me too, you know. I liked you because I somehow knew it will not lead anywhere. Am I weird? I am just being my normal me... Haiz.. Sometimes, even I don't understand myself..

So if you happen to read this and you are positive that you are who I am talking about here, I want you to forget you read this in 5 minutes. And don't you ever mention this note to me. Besides, how can u be so sure that I'm talking about you?

Note: if you think it is you, and you are ultra sure it is you, then yes, i really like you. But that ends there.

-end

drama queen: question mark

Surprise surprise!!! He sent me text messages. I said I will hope again if he texts me and he did!

Fine! They were just friendly messages. I asked him a trivial question about his love life and he replied. He could have lied. He could have just let me think whatever I want to think. I know that friendship is the only thing he can offer to me.  I'm pretty sure that is all he can offer. Now or in the future. I also know that he knows that I am still hoping for both of us to get back together. I know that he will do anything to make me think that it will be impossible for that wish to come true. One clue is the fact that he made another account to pose as his girlfriend. I really don't know why he did that. I assumed he wants me to think he's off limits. I saw right through it, of course. When I saw the comments in his wall, I just smirked and rolled my eyes. Although my mind is telling me that that girl is just a figment of his imagination, I still got hurt. I realized that he had to resort to that pathetic tactic just to lure me away from him. So what if it did not work out the way he wanted it to(I am still here)? So what? It still delivered the dagger-like message straight to my heart. The message was clear. Too clear that I need not repeat it here. Which again led me to think this; He could have lied. Or he could have just let me be. Just kept his silence. Wasn't that his purpose for creating that fake account in FB?


That is why when he replied that he has no girlfriend now and is not looking for one,  I got surprised. I also do not know what to think now that he had deleted that same account.( Could it be that he has some girl he wants to impress? I'm scared. )Still it did not change anything. The fact that he told me a personal information means that he cared a little to what I think about him. And just because of that teeny weeny thing, I am raising my hopes up again!!! 

I don't know. It is just that, I asked for this sign. I was sure that he will not text me again, yet he did. 

I don't want to think anymore. I will just let nature take its course. Let myself develop into a swan, a butterfly, something beautiful. If he is the one for me, he will be mine. If he is not, someone else will thank him for letting me go.


But why did he reply? Why?